stop and smell the smoke.

2011-08-14T08:19:00.002+10:00

I'm just going to say this without fear of being unpolitically correct. I HATE WORKING IN GEELONG. There is SO much screwed up about that place. the dispensers are lazy and judgemental (hey do my job for me if you want, i don't care)and unmotivated!!! the patients are a bunch of skeptical fools and are whiny - hardwork in general. The ratio of crazies is to normal people is like a billion to one (I'm getting sick of dealing with Australians. Ok, before you start thinking of anything else, I just mean I'm sick of dealing with people who are not my people). The manager is unsupportive, abrupt, charges up the whole place with negative energy, does not believe in the team... the list goes on. and the assistant manager runs around worried sick and does her own head in stressing about figures and stuff.

THE WHOLE THING IS A JOKE.

and I haven't even gotten to the part where the company has lost the plot, putting all this silly pressure on optoms... I've gone through five years of uni, to NOT have free reign over what goes on in my consulting room. RIGHT, makes sense to me. So i'm dealing with the conflict of managing a patient appropriately v.s. lying to people about them needing a retinal photograph and new glasses.

Also, its making me a really angry person... and i mean, a REALLY angry person. and also, I don't really care for a social life anymore, I just want to rest for more work!

five year plan? quit.

p.s. I really miss Albury.

2010-11-27T01:27:00.003+11:00

i am back from india! land of blaring horns, crazy traffic that just seems to fall into place, women who can miraculously do everything in their sarees: a land of many possibilities (which some people don't get because of their lack of resources), a land of culture and colour... and strange smells.

I don't think I am ready to immerse myself into the city life in India. I still can't yet see myself walking the streets of India with ease. Thus, it was a big relief to take that train ride out of the city into the much needed pleasantness of the country side.

I should sleep! More to come soon!

2010-09-16T23:09:00.003+10:00

blogging's been taken over by twitter and facebook!
i think this cyber trend is slowly disappearing. :( i can't revive a trend but i can revive my own blog :)

anyhoo, life has been routine (a life which involves fulltime work normally is) but still filled with pockets of excitement like my ever changing work schedule that sends me travelling from north east victoria (albury/wodonga/lavington) to south west victoria (as far as geelong). i am tired!!! with a capital T. But I will and must hang in there till next year when i'm finally back in melbourne for good, working in g-town and still getting regional loading hehehe. :) mmmmmm cash. :p just kiddin'.

so what else's been new... excitement has also come in the form of material things (i realise how horrible that sounds, but i plan on milking the benefits of fulltime work hehe). daph and i went late night shopping today and randomly bought a diamond ring each. i think "diamond ring" kinda makes it sound more precious than it really is though. The phrase, "a ring with diamonds", probably describes it a little more appropriately. the rocks aren't in your face. its just 12 really TINY ones on a slim band of white gold.

home in point cook is getting more functional as the days go by. i really hope that i'll be able to fit everything in to my small room and make it look the way i want it to! i have made the risky decision of sacrificing room space for natural light. the larger room has such a small window, i think i'd be depressed if i took that room. hehe

all in all, life is shaping up nicely for our move back to melbourne. i miss dancing like MAD like you wont believe. but it also scares me to go back to it. sucking at it scares me :(

gdnite world for now. and i hope i'll write soon.

2010-07-23T21:48:00.001+10:00

u know that u really love someone...when you hear bad news while you're on the way to meet them... and it doesn't get u down at all.

and all that goes on in your mind is that everything will be okay when you see them.

(and i mean BAD news)

2010-06-20T23:30:00.001+10:00

BLAH i'm so sick of this!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-04-08T08:06:00.001+10:00

u know i'm always behind you.
rooting for u.

'i'll catch u falling when u least expect'

2010-04-08T08:04:00.001+10:00

i miss easter camp already
the wonderful people and all the valuable lessons learnt.

putting death to your old self. and glorifying God. always so hard to do! but when bringing Glory to the Lord is the only thing on your mind, sin becomes boring...
i have yet to reach that stage. We're all works in progress and I pray that all of us will grow in the Lord day by day.

2010-03-06T21:31:00.000+11:00

today i thought to myself.
i really didn't waste all that time on you (:

2009-09-28T19:24:00.002+10:00

ok trying to blog after such a long while!
I have no idea what to write though.

first thing's first. Ris Low. I think people should just stop talking about her.
yes she can't speak english (but she can probably kick all our asses in chinese)
and she's not that good looking
but its not her fault she won miss singapore world. i dont think she would be as talked about if she didn't win it.

so its not her fault.

greys anatomy! season 6... i have a feeling the writers are trying to make it more light hearted and funny (or seems that way). im addicted to greys though so i cant say anything bad about it...
first episode was on the five stages of grief. and everyone experiences the stages differently.

day 3 for me. things aren't looking up as yet. but they will. boys have cooties!!!!!!!!

2009-06-01T18:37:00.002+10:00

sighhhh feeling so out of sorts today
firstly went to work today feeling really nervous. no idea why.
and now im feeling really super depressed. i have no idea why too.
so the only logical explanation is PMS! haha.

store is moving soon. so we get 2 days of no testing. i wish i could go to sydney!! visit cheryl. but i think we have to help out. which i dont wanna! haha:p will be good to get re orientated with the new store though.

i dont want to do anything!!!

2009-04-26T18:27:00.001+10:00

when a heart breaks no it dont break even.

2009-04-17T20:30:00.002+10:00

it was a really disappointing week for me at work this week. 2 remakes at the start of the week and 2 remakes at the end.

but i think there's an awesome weekend awaiting me. always great having something to look forward to. kinda brings back memories.

2009-03-29T15:13:00.004+11:00

yay!!
i'm finally in wodonga/albury for the weekend. been going back to melb the past four weeks to do church things. a bit tiring really. hoping i wont suffer from a bad burn out. but i always feel extremely bad when i dont go back. letting the other leaders down and all.

cooking church lunch this coming sunday... i feel like i really have to rest up for that. whole morning of cooking. followed by a four hour bus ride back to albury at night... and work the next morning...

not going to be fun...but its all in the name of feeding the congregation and bonding with the cell members. :) and wanton mee!!! haha.

just came back from driving lesson. i always feel so nervous when i drive! too many things to look out for. i feel like i wont ever get my license... will be like those last chance learners. :p :p :p

and because im in albury this weekend, i can finally watch sytycd on tv!!! :)

:)

2009-03-10T22:05:00.001+11:00

Since you've gone I've lost a chip on my shoulder,
Since you've gone I feel like I've gotten older,
And now you've gone it feels as if the whole wide world is my stage
And now you've gone it's like I've been let out of my cage

2009-03-02T18:31:00.002+11:00

this is one of those days, i really wanna swap careers
i told my boss' wife what i really wanna do. lol and she's like "yeah! one of the guys we had here before wanted to be a journalist."

2009-02-26T21:42:00.003+11:00

notes to self:

this one puts knots in my heart:

i know my music's way behind!!!

2009-02-23T21:22:00.003+11:00

finally blogging! :)

nothing much has been going on besides work. first week of work was pretty good! (: second and third week, not so... cos didn't meet many nice patients :( i figured its normally the old ladies with cataracts that are mean to me. cos changing their powers dont help them. so they immediately think i dont know what im doing (they may be right though).

determined to make this fourth week a better one (: still getting patients looking at me with doubtful looks. daph is getting the same looks. dad says its cos we look too young.

haven't been to studios yet. daph bought new foot thongs!!! so that means she'll def come with me. :D

itching to go back to melb now.

beautiful music. beautiful clothes.

you walk the surface of this town
the high heels above the ground
and high horses that we know
keep us safe until the night

2009-02-10T23:11:00.001+11:00

will never forget
my favourite conversations.

2009-02-07T01:33:00.003+11:00

its the first weekend after a long hard week of work.(ok not long and not hard, but very well paced and fun even!) i get to stay up late tonight!!!

im amazed that we've adapted so well to the sudden transition from singapore's city to the countryside down under. Its actually not too bad a town. There's Sportsgirl which i like :) and Supre too. and a cinema and chinese (with actual chinese people from hong kong who speak canto as a first language), thai, indian and mexican restaurants (with HUGE margaritas)!!! and Safeway closes at 12 midnight so its not too bad. and there's a TAB which opens till 4am everyday. and there's a dancewear shop just around the corner from where i work!!!

ok basically, its not so bad a town. :) there are cows in my backyard though :)

got so many photos from singapore to put up, but too lazy right now... yawn

2009-01-20T05:53:00.002+11:00

countdowns to a dreaded day have begun on msn nicks and facebook status updates are far from happy and festive.

its almost time for us to leave singapore again and i've got the blues :(

2009-01-18T04:13:00.002+11:00

went for a girl hip hop class at danzpeople yesterday! routine was to circus!!! unfortunately, the teacher was already on the last three eights. and they've been working on this routine for the past 2 weeks already.

but it was so good! sweated it out. i was so happy that it was to a britney song. spent all my time today watching britney vids and interviews. what a great way to spend a day. body's aching all over from a combination of clubbing on wed and the class yesterday.

this is a boring entry.

this is one doodle that can't be undid

2009-01-14T21:54:00.003+11:00

just watched juno for a second time.
dont know what else to say, just that, there are so many things to love about it :)

2009-01-13T04:00:00.003+11:00

yay!! signed up for dance classes. sort of. (have we?) haha
but really excited anyways!!! its been a long time (:
wondering if my brain can still keep up with steps. time to put nds' brain training to the test! *grin*

just found pictures of a random ballet enthusiast and her husband. she made her husband model ballet-esque pictures with her and they look so cutee. aww. she was in total ballet attire, tutu and pointes and all. and he was in his jeans and converse shoes! awwwww.

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down to the last couple of weeks in sgp. been a pretty fruitful and fun holiday i think! catching up with dydct (outings and more outings!!) and tablegang (from hawker food parties all the way to atas food parties!) went to the zoo with yj, yj's dad and daph on saturday. its so changed now! lush greenery, fresh air, funky animals, a cool cool sea lion, cute 2 month old baby manatees and playful elephants!!! that pretty much sums up the day (:

oh! and i want an orang utannnn. so cute!

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brilliant song!!!

Hands down
I'm too proud, for love
But with eyes shut
It's you I'm thinking of
But how we move from A to B it can't be up to me
Cause I don't know
Eye to eye
Thigh to Thigh
I let go

I think I'm a little bit
Little bit

A little bit in love with you
But only if you're a little bit
Little bit
Little bit
In lalalala love with me
Oh ah

:) :) :) i love all the lalalas that substitute proper words.
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this photo cracks me up.

2009-01-11T18:08:00.002+11:00

2009-01-08T05:49:00.001+11:00

sigh, cheryl, tiff: really sorry our plans to go to butter got wrecked.
and had to turn around to go to zouk instead :(

i had a lot of fun, but thought about u girls the whole time i was there.

2009-01-07T17:57:00.002+11:00

we've all fallen ill!!!
and not only dydct.
but also table gang!!!

nevertheless, we're still throwing caution to the wind. gonna club tonight!
its a wednesday after all!!!

2009-01-02T18:40:00.001+11:00

2008-12-29T14:39:00.004+11:00

i <3 britney, bobby n blake! haha.

this is such a good song~
and the lyrics... so girl power!!! yea!!!

c, daph and i made a start at toy soldier!!! and i think we learnt quite a bit of the dance in one night. :) yay for us!!!

2008-12-27T14:50:00.004+11:00

dexter's bday at zouk last night was really awesome!!! music was fantastic!!!
they played forever!!! and disturbia and low!!!and just dance. and u get the picture :D nowww we know when to go to phuture. *wink* i got kinda tired and stony and less energetic after awhile though, but that always happens to me in the club hehhh :p

i think i've stocked up enough of clubbing to last me the whole hols and the entire year in the country. getting old!!!

but still have yet to go with dydct......:( :( :(

anyways, this is the hot routine which i've been raving about!

really felt like going for a dance class today. dunno why! for some release mebbe? & was also in this productive mood to do something useful, learn something new or something. or do something feel-good. im feeling like the way christina felt in that episode of greys, when she got her eyebrows shaved for her wedding lol and she went back to seattle grace saying she needed to cut something open then and there.

got out from bed at 7am to look for studios to go to, but sadly, everything's closed for xmas :( so now im just trying to learn steps off youtube haha.

christmas

2008-12-26T05:52:00.004+11:00

its Christmas!!! :D

Christmas was pretty good this year. dinner with the extended family was extremely bittersweet. seeing my uncle in the condition he is in now is extremely heartbreaking. but i believe prayers of healing will continue to be spoken and God's will will be done at the end of it all. cousin's kids are getting cuter and smarter and naughtier each year. haha.

There was plenty of food at the dinner!!! including gorgeous MANUKA honey ham contributed by dad :) cost a bomb but it was so worth it!!! cousin whom my grandma calls a "clever cook" made lamb and it was soooooo delicious!!! there was also turkey, pasta, lots and lots of salad etc etc etc.

desert consisted of my uncle's birthday cake baked and decorated by my grandma. it was kueh lapis with chocolate icing!!! haha. my grandma's "specialty" cos u never find kueh lapis like that anywhere. must've been a lot of work...

i was too full to eat the durian puffs and the china biscuits :(

zouk-ing tomorrow with the cell peeps! hahaha. think everyone's pretty excited about it. i'm excited to club with them!

im being v incoherent and abrupt. in a hurry to go watch nodame!!! characters are slowly becoming more endearing so that's good (:

2008-12-21T16:12:00.002+11:00

:) its about time i updated this space. :)
singapore's been so great this time around! but i have no idea what makes it different this time around though.

beside the usual dinner at sushi tei, movie watching and the consumption of hawker food... we've been hanging out at c's place (which have also become a pretty frequent affair). had a popiah party where we played cranium and watched stupid videos on youtube. HEHE!!! i can't get the charlie the unicorn vid out of my head (gets really creepy towards the end, poor thing!) and the jap matrix ping pong vid was just amazing!!! so well rehearsed!!! sometimes i think asians do really unnecessary things. lol.

the other day i was telling daph and dad that i think asians really place a lot of emphasis on money and gadgetry and being updated with technology and stuff. caucasians on the other hand, are the more laid back bunch. they like it simple and they place more emphasis on fun, friendships, family etc. the trams in melbourne dont have tv mobile even though the rides may possibly be longer in melbourne. im generalising though. :)

the girls wanna go for girl hip hop classes soon, and i'm really really excited we get to go for dance classes together!!! the dance studio is closed till the 5th of jan though :( so there's no action in the form of dancing for now. i really cant wait for it!!! :)

went to timbre @ the arthouse yesterday night. was sad we missed out on the goodfellas at the substation branch cos it was so crowded!!! i really wanna watch them!!! havent had a chance to...they sounded pretty good when we were pulling out of the carpark (:

the band at the arthouse was pretty good too though, at least song choice wise (they sang i'm yours!!!). but i didn't really like her personality. hrmph!

also, they should really make sex on the beach a big drink instead of just a tiny shot. :D

2008-12-10T11:19:00.003+11:00

Lately I don’t think of you at all
Or wonder what you’re up to
Or how you’re getting on
I never think of calling you
Or how things could have been
Or wonder where you sleep at night
Or whose arms you wake in

Lately
I don’t get lost in daydreams
I never lay awake at night
Staring in my bed
And I don’t think about your face
Or anything you’ve said
And I don’t think twice
When someone says your name

I never walk alone and think
Of all the empty words
Or wonder when the day will break
Or when the tides will turn
And I don’t break down
When someone says your name

2008-12-09T19:23:00.002+11:00

pics from meal at MART 130. as promised. this took so long.

happy hatchday

2008-11-21T16:34:00.005+11:00

its my hatchday today!
along with many others! cant believe i know five other pple whose bday is today.
and 1 other person whose bday is yesterday. so has really been bday wishes galore all around! n lots of cake eating too hehe. its funny how cell cake surprises are no longer surprises lol! a traditional surprise. someone say oxymoron!! :D

went for a nice lunch with mum and day. at MART 130. which is actually a tram stop! yes! the tram stops right at it. MART cos its tram spelt backwards. and its stop 130 on the 96 route. It was a really pretty and quaint place. with food served on white plates (i love that!) and purposely mismatching side plates. sunlight streaming through the windows and skylight. broken down chairs, with faded paint, cushions... so pretty. (:

the food was gd too! its like cafe food. i had corn fritters and bacon which is their famous dish. daph had smoked salmon, poached eggs, avocado and hollandaise sauce on sourdough toast. dad had kinda the same thing but with sausages instead of smoked salmon and minus the avocado i think! and mum had a stack of blueberry pancakes whipped cream and all. mmmmmmmm. so classic

think its a better place for brekkie/brunch than lunch tho!

pics up soon mebbe?

foxtel!!!

2008-11-18T18:22:00.003+11:00

foxtel came in today!!! :D i love it! gilmore girls!!!! lots of it!!! we have to have that channel. life in albury's looking pretty gd now we have foxtel. it can keep me busy for hours. sigh if not for my job, i'll just be sitting at home watching tv all day.

here's to the couch potato days that follow!

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sometimes i just find myself missing him. :(

2008-11-17T18:58:00.000+11:00

the patient i hope i'll never have!!!
thanks c for showing this to me!!! its super funny!

danny's back? greys s05e08

2008-11-16T03:04:00.003+11:00

the ties that bind us are sometimes impossible to explain.
they connect us even after it seems like the ties should be broken.
some bonds defy distance and time and logic.
because some ties are simply...meant to be.

i feel so happy for izzy :)even though MANY fans have said that
its time for her to move on, its pathetic that they brought danny back, plot is thinning, etc. etc. all of which are true.

i know im a sappy romantic hehe :p but i just feel so happy for her because she has him; albeit in some warped way. i just feel its impossible* for her to move on from danny... so this is the next best thing.

karev is great though :D

female pride! :D :D

2008-11-15T01:00:00.001+11:00

gilmore girls rocks my socks! :D

At some small town event for the kids with an LOTR theme:

small girl: Riley said only boy hobbits can travel to Mount Doom
Is that true?

Lorelai: In the movie, only boy hobbits travel to mount doom, but that's only because
the girls went to do something even more dangerous.

small girl: what???

Lorelai: ever heard of a brazillian bikini wax?

girl: so girls go on adventures too???

Lorelai: and they go in heels.

2008-11-10T17:03:00.002+11:00

why does love have to screw up people's lives.
three days in a row and i've already heard several different stories of heartbreak. :(

2008-10-28T23:39:00.001+11:00

I grabbed some frozen strawberries so I could ice your bruisy knees
But frozen things they all unfreeze and now I taste like
All those frozen strawberries I used to chill your bruisy knees,
Hot July ain't good to me
I'm pink and black and blue

I got bruises on my knees for you
And grass stains on my knees for you
Got holes in my new jeans for you
Got pink and black and blue

wee! this song is great :D too bad i can't find the file on radio blog club :(

2008-10-15T23:19:00.005+11:00

tonight you rest in my mind
when you came to my defence with a knife in the shape of your mouth
in the form of your body
with the wrath of a God.

went for a lyrical dance class on monday. the teacher knows blake mcgrath!!! dancing from the heart, to a good song (belief-gavin degraw), is always such a high. i had a relatively weird day. so was just good to let it out in class...

today's wed and i'm still aching from monday. oof! we just rehearsed in church for our performance this sunday.... so i'm gonna be aching a few more days i think.

job offers stuffed up my arse...(ok not that many...but yep u get the pic hehe) i really need God's guidance now to lead me to choosing the right job. just hope to do what's pleasing to Him.

2008-10-09T05:42:00.002+11:00

but you put on quite a show
really had me going
now its time to go
curtain's finally closing.

but why does a big part of me still wish u were around.

2008-10-06T16:21:00.003+11:00

its funny studying in what used to be the dance studio at frank tate.
too many memories here!

2008-09-17T01:02:00.004+10:00

really just surrendering everything to God now.
I've always depended on Him for strength. but this it the first time I've depended so much on Him.
God really doesn't give us trials and tribulations for nothing :D

seems like the assignments are just getting harder and harder to complete. :( told alg today that im getting really tired of the project. he laughed at my reaction cos i said it good naturedly. but yea im really tired!!! :(

surf the channel has failed me& wedding bells!

2008-09-07T05:14:00.002+10:00

NOOO!
surf the channel doesn't allow me to watch anymore videos for today
and its 3.15am in the morning!!! means... its not just a simple waiting for the morning to come before i can access more vids... its going a whole day without watching vids!!!

but. i have church in the morning. then lunch with dad. then will only be a few hours back in the hostel pretty-ing up for tiff's bro's wedding!!!
so i think i'll survive :)

excited!!! i can't believe today's the wedding!!! i've been thinking about this for a long time since i found out i could attend it :)

2008-09-06T02:54:00.003+10:00

i will hate to see him go.
but what i feel is nothing compared to what he's feeling.
i wont even dare to fathom what that feels like.
we've each got our own set of ticking clocks.

a ticking clock not only counts down to a dreaded day.
but also tells you how much time you have to gather up whatever you need.

and usually when the clock strikes,

we're ready (:

schooooooool

2008-09-02T01:18:00.004+10:00

mannn this is nuts!

19th september: glaucoma case report and anterior eye case report
6th oct: final draft
10th oct (will also be the death of me): oral exam, CL case report and paeds report
17th oct: general case report
26th oct: final dissertation

no prizes for guessing which month i hate most!

but gilmore girls calms my nerves. :D

more time

2008-08-12T00:31:00.003+10:00

just trying to push through the pain

2008-08-11T10:50:00.001+10:00

i'm so excited!!! and i just can't hide it!!!
haha :)
i couldn't help but notice the link between satc and dyct.
satc reunited this year... and so will dyct in... 5 days!

this will be the longest 5 days of my life.

2008-08-03T18:58:00.003+10:00

for communion today, the girl was speaking about how its so easy to say life is unfair. which i realised is something i've been doing alot. i guess it gets pretty inevitable sometimes, when, for so many years u've tried to put someone else's feelings before your own. tried so hard to listen objectively.

my mum told me not to listen to things that will hurt me. and i had to tell her i'm not hurt at all. i felt myself lie through my teeth...but there is some truth in it...sometimes, when u care about someone, the hurt is nothing in comparison to the desire to be there for them, and provide them with a listening ear, some support...

i wont do it anymore. life is what it is. its plain, simple and fair and it is (cliche as it sounds)...it is...what God wants for me. The circumstances that have been given to me shouldn't be described as "unfair"...I've grown so much just from listening to things that hurt me.

i'll do my best to follow Him, knowing that He has given me a mountain of strength thus far and will continue to give me the strength i need. Faith...its all I need to have.

a twisted sweet romance

2008-07-26T22:26:00.003+10:00

smashing pumpkins-tonight tonight

Time is never time at all
You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth
And our lives are forever changed
We will never be the same
The more you change the less you feel

Believe, believe in me, believe
Believe that life can change
That youre not stuck in vain
Were not the same, were different tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight

And you know youre never sure
But youre sure you could be right
If you held yourself up to the light
And the embers never fade in your city by the lake
The place where you were born

Believe, believe in me, believe
Believe in the resolute urgency of now
And if you believe theres not a chance tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight

We'll crucify the insincere tonight
We'll make things right, well feel it all tonight
We'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
The indescribable moments of your life tonight
The impossible is possible tonight
Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight

u should have known by now, you were on my list.

2008-07-17T01:18:00.005+10:00

ooo the killers...can they do anything wrong? this vid has such a great atmosphere to it!!! i shall watch them live one day! :D

their songs remind me of cooking in c's sydney kitchen. (:

Let me wrap myself around you
Let you show me how I see
And when you come back in from nowhere
Do you ever think of me?
Your heart is not able
Let me show you how much I care
I need those eyes to tide me over
I’ll take your picture when I go
It gives me strength and gives me patience
But I’ll never let you know
I got nothing on you baby
But I always said I try
Let me show you how much I care
Cuz sometimes it gets hard
And don’t she know
Don’t give the ghost up just clench your fist
You should have known by now you were on my list
Don’t give the ghost up just clench your fist
You should have known by now you were on my list
Don’t give the ghost up just clench your fist
You should have known by now you were on my list
When your heart is not able
And your prayers they’re not fables
Let me show you (let me show you)
Let me show you (let me show you)
Let me show you how much I care oh

2008-07-12T23:22:00.007+10:00

love revisiting old videos. :)

some stuff from down-under: loved loved loved kate!!!

some stuff from the US:

loved allison in this one!!! ne-yo's songs so nice :)... which brings me to the next vid.

and speaking of fancy choreography...

this vid made me cry and smile at the same time. go wade robson!!!

2008-07-09T23:58:00.005+10:00

2 minutes left of this awesome day :)

1) saw colin firth and meryl streep outside melbourne central.getting out of a swanky swanky black bentley (drool) and onto the sprawling red carpet surrounded by glittering camera flashes and screams. sadly, i could only see them from across the street. and had to stand on a bench to catch a glimpse of them.
2) had dance ministry in church!!! saw the girls again :)
3)PAM ANDERSON ENTERED THE BIG BROTHER HOUSE!!! felt excited for daph cos she actually was in close proximity to the house when this happened.
4) came home and read sweet entries in c's blog :)
5) talked to bev online after how long!!! she recommended new artists. :) my music guru, no less!
6) had a great day in clinic :)

2008-07-08T21:14:00.004+10:00

im sooo bad at multitasking!
lately i've just been a workaholic (sort of hehe)! haha... writing and writing. case reports, project... (i dont know how the arts students do it). but there are so many extra things to do. like getting my resume nice and pretty, applying for jobs, LEARN TO DRIVE. but i just have no guts to try and multitask with all the big things looming ahead.

back to the world of optometry

2008-07-07T21:37:00.004+10:00

started school today again. great to see everyone again! feels like TOO LONG since we saw the batch of students who went overseas... saw two patients too. the first of which had a really nice accent. he was from the netherlands. the second of which was this super anxious woman who couldn't stand getting her eyes touched. but actually turned out to be super cooperative cos surprisingly she didnt blink when the tonometer probe touched her cornea.

free day tomorrow. tuesday!!! feel like going out for a movie!!

do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands...would you get them if i did?

2008-07-04T14:10:00.005+10:00

its really hard missing someone.

yummy song

2008-07-02T21:00:00.004+10:00

2008-07-01T01:22:00.003+10:00

last night in sydney :(
but im happy!! cos i thought im departing in the morning... 8am...
but! i checked my flight times again, and i'm actually departing at night~ haha 8pm!
i've fallen in love with this city. i feel like coming here to work next year.

have made some friends this holiday too~ and its great to have familiar faces here too. would love to live with cheryl and keep a dog together. maltipoo!!! or... pgymy schnauzer. hehe :) so cute!!! saw border collie puppies the other day. made me miss my collie big time.

ok time to job hunt.

labels or love.

2008-06-25T10:01:00.004+10:00

sex and the city was so good! :)
very glad i waited to watch it with c :)
i feel like watching it againnn!!1 it made me laugh and cry at the same time. and even shed sad and happy tears!!! dont think i've done that at any other movie. i think its also cos the audience have built a connection with the characters for ten years... its like u know them personally.
*falls in love*

i dont see what anyone can see in anyone else, but you.

2008-06-19T12:30:00.003+10:00

I had such a bad dream last night.
i was so happy when i woke. to find out it didn't happen.
sleep has never been so stress before...

anyways:

SYDNEYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
going to see c and sheryl soon!!!!
so funny i'm going to be visiting two c/sheryls. hahaha

here's to a fun 10 days ahead :)

there's nothing a feel good tv show can't fix.

2008-06-19T01:05:00.005+10:00

*after agreeing to have drinks with ronny, some client with questions about the litigation department.

ally:
"just saying yes to a drink,
it made me have to run home and shower.
i'm gonna have drinks with a man to get ahead
it..it doesn't matter that i'm not in a relationship with anybody
sometimes i feel that im just being unfaithful to love itself."

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

"i think i need to believe that it works.
love, couplehood, partnerships
the idea that when people come together, they stay together
i have to take that with me when i go to bed at night, even if i'm going to bed alone
that's a mcbealism."

a conversation between first loves.

2008-06-18T21:56:00.005+10:00

billy: ally, what the hell was that back there. obviously our break up has left u with some residual feelings, angry feelings
ally: no actually billy, the residual feeling was hope. and that's why i...i...(laughs a little) i'm fine billy, i just have a slight problem adjusting to change

(his wife, georgia walks in, looking perfect, lighting up the room)
georgia: (smiling) here you are
billy: georgia
georgia: ready?
billy: hi! uh. yea! this is ally mcbeal, ally, my wife, georgia.
georgia: hi! its nice to meet you
ally: its a pleasure
billy: georgia works over at goodwin. we met in law school, she was my editor.
ally: you're a lawyer?
georgia: (smiling) dont ask me why. (to billy) well we really should go, we have reservations at seven
billy: ok. i just need 2 seconds
georgia: alrightt i'll hold the elevator. nice meeting you ally!
ally: you too

---------ally and billy are left alone again-------------

ally: She's uh. uh. she seems nice
billy: this is a memo outlining the tax analysis...
ally:thanks
billy: (humourously, warmly) ally look. we've known each other too well to pretend that........ you were hoping she was fat. and stupid. maybe mising a couple of teeth.
ally: (smiles and nods guiltily)mm hmm.
billy: i shld go
ally: nono billy. u've gotta give me something more. u need to give me something more. u can't just leave me like that.

billy: (again, humourously) alright...she snores
and the roots aren't quite so blonde.

ally: nono something. more. i need one more thing.

billy: left little toe? bunion.

ally: (smiles) thank you.

2008-06-17T00:23:00.004+10:00

just finished watching yet another whole series on youtube!
"step it up and dance"
i'm glad cody won cos his technique is amazing but he doesn't emote. at all. sometimes its hard to show emotion when u've been used to suppressing it i guess. :(
even though my fave was mochi.
loved the routine they did to michael jackson's man in the mirror!!! :D goosebumps!!!

i got told off by daph just now for youtubing too much :( cos we keep exceeded our band width and i'm the only reason why that's happening (its true). i feel like i have no life. only youtube...i just sit in front of the comp all day and youtube. and by the end of the day, i have super tired eyes.
feeling really distant from her nowadays. o wells.

over a period of time, i've watched :
10 seasons of ANTM
4 seasons of project runway
half a season of project catwalk
4 seasons of ramsay's kitchen nightmares
1 season of step it up and dance
on youtube...
also, finished gossip girl on surf the channel

i really have no life.

fyi, i am doing something with my life

2008-06-15T21:23:00.004+10:00

talking to someone lately has proved to be really bad for my blood pressure
i can literally feel my blood boiling everytime i talk to said person.
sigh, i think God is trying to teach me patience and teaching me how to love everyone around me...

i used to think im a pretty tolerant person up till now...
i have a long way to go.
a lot more patience to have.

i dont like what said person implies about my life
that im lazy, leading a lazy life.
i dont like that one moment im made to feel TOO wanted (oh dear)
and the next second (yes, second), a different tune would be sung along the lines of "oh its okay, ure not that important"
like...make up your mind much?

2008-06-14T23:49:00.001+10:00

crossed paths
on many an occassion
and all the time
wished i was headed where she was headed
to places where i had no right to be.

missing

2008-06-09T11:30:00.001+10:00

Yesterday i got lost in the circus,
feeling like such a mess.
And now I'm down,
I'm just hanging on the corner.
I can't help but reminisce.

Cuz when you're gone,
all the colours fade.
When you're gone,no new years day parade.
When you're gone,
colours seem to fade.

2008-06-08T20:09:00.001+10:00

irritated irritated irritated irritated

2008-06-05T16:25:00.002+10:00

one more day of patients and i'm freee!!!
even though i still have case reports to write and that final year project bugging me anddd teh BIG finals to study for, at least i'll be taking a break from patients hahaha yay!!!
no more cranky/deaf/long-winded old patients at the vco
no more seeing stressed out (but nice) uni students at the uni melb eye clinic.
just.. me and my lap top typing away :)

then its one more month of old/cranky/deaf people + stressed out uni students... before tantockseng attachment in august!!! can't wait to go back to singapore... soo many pple will be there in aug!!! :D :D :D

high maintanence

2008-05-24T23:33:00.002+10:00

suffocating:(
i know itsjust a small thing, but its hard to have it at the back of ur mind, something to keep track off.
and even tho it just takes a small amount of time away from me, it breaks my momentum.
but i feel too mean and i'd feel bad to say no. :(

need to break free

2008-05-22T22:03:00.001+10:00

dont know how to make things change.
not enough courage, not enough brains.
probably hurts to try too.

2008-05-16T21:19:00.002+10:00

barely hanging in there, dizzy with excitement.

had such a long day in school today.
saw three patients back to back in the morning.
then didn't even have time to eat lunch.
rushed to the other clinic for dispensing/administration.

came home at about 6.10 after school... was disappointed that i was too tired to go for the 6.30 dance class. went for the 7.30 dance class.

and i've agreed to go clubbing today... but just soooo tired so i'm not really in the mood anymore. but i think when i reach there i'll be in the mood :)

at least the weekend's here. :) always a special special treat.

2008-05-15T00:29:00.001+10:00

not long now :)

2008-05-10T23:16:00.002+10:00

也许时间是一种解药也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕没有理由我也能自己走

its the wrong kind of place, to be thinking of you

2008-05-09T00:50:00.002+10:00

had dance ministry practice the other day :)
spent about 20 minutes just randomly doing butterfly jumps around and trying to do back rolls into splits (unsuccessfully) hehe, but was really funny! cos daph kept geting stuck midway in her backroll.

we were just letting the cd play along..... then winny started dancing to 9 crimes with her own choreography!!! so niceee. and she didnt even choreograph for anything. just for fun. but it was so nice!! wasted...its such a nice song too.

2008-04-15T20:04:00.000+10:00

the invasion of my favourite places.

2008-04-12T23:34:00.000+10:00

where'd u go
i miss you so
seems like its been forever
since you've been gone

2008-04-10T23:52:00.002+10:00

it'll take no sherlock holmes
to see its a little different around here.
-artic monkeys

for the first time in my entire australian education, im THIS stress during school term.
and its so weird that what im stressing over are cancelled clinical sessions. and i want more school. caryn was saying that no one gets it why we're stressing over that. haha. but yea, we're really wasting our days away. probably good because after this, no chance we'll be this relaxed ever again. heh.

and we have a paediatric exam coming up soon, and none of us have seen kids. nonsenseee hahaha. hopefully it'll be alright. dont think they'll be too hard on us :)

today i turned up for a class that was cancelled. and we were only informed via email the night before. and i didn't check. meh. i think the optom would have let me stay cos she was so nice :) but obviously i didn't stay cos i felt so out of place. :p

also, i saw my clinical supervisor today! the one that turned into a singer. haha. :) and she has released an album australia wide and will be gigging in sydney and brisbane soon. so cool! i have her autograph cos she signed me off after marking me LOL! but i think i dont have the paper anymore.

excitin optom-ness

2008-04-07T22:46:00.003+10:00

went to the alfred hospital today! :)
was good!!! tony hall is such a nice ophthalmologist. there were snooty med students there. one of them was like "oh...we're sitting in with optom students." in THAT kinda tone. but we totally kicked their asses YEAH! we taught them how to use the ophthalmolscope... BUT having said that, they were nice. :) and they're third years... so its okay :) im just bitchy.

the last patient that came in had HIV... i was excited!!! but after i looked into his eyes, i felt...quite sad. i think. more shocked at first... cos i saw this HUGE scar that covered the optic nerve and the scar just went on forever... i was like "please please stop there". u cld hardly see the optic nerve. He's getting around well though... and he's lived 14 years with aids. so that's amazing :)

the University of Melbourne Eye Clinic opens tomorrow!! they're bringing in the dior, hugo boss and marc jacobs frames tomorrow! I'm excited to go see!!! they're giving the 5th years the right to choose the frames for the practice. so that's cool!!! :D hehe a visit to the guide dog association awaits before frame picking... :) i wanna see the labs!!!!!!!!! ive been waiting for this visit ever since they said we get to go :) hehehe

let go, so let go~

2008-04-05T01:15:00.001+11:00

wo gei ni zui hao de teng ai shi shou fang kai

i'm getting a taste of my own medicine now.
and i really wish i didn't give u that dose of it.

2008-03-29T23:30:00.002+11:00

I loved thee, though I told thee not,
Right earlily and long,
Thou wert my joy in every spot,
My theme in every song.

And when I saw a stranger face
Where beauty held the claim,
I gave it like a secret grace
The being of thy name.

And all the charms of face or voice
Which I in others see
Are but the recollected choice
Of what I felt for thee.

~John Clare

went for Jessie's graduation and Jane's engagement party today!
looks like today's a big day for many people haha. :)
i saw my optom seniors graduating too!!! i finally get to see the colour of my grad gown!!!
was a very very good way to spend my last day in civilisation before getting whizzed off by connex to wodonga. :(
i think i'm just sad cos i'll be alone and staying with an unfamiliar (but really nice) family.

its a good way to make sure i hit my patient quota for this year too...
so that i can hopefully wear that gown next year!!! hehe. :p :p

2008-03-19T01:50:00.002+11:00

now that i have no more flare,
and my life is not longer: school, come home drop bags, pick up dance shoes, go to the studio...
i amazingly have managed, in an instant, to find things to fill up those 5 odd hours or so per week, things that make me so busy and tired in a different way.
and i honestly want to just go back to flare!

sigh, patience patience... breathe in, breathe out.

2008-03-12T01:59:00.003+11:00

a triangle tryin' to fit through a circle
they tried to cut me so i'd fit.

i've been watching episode after episode of shows that will make some shake their heads in disapproval. hehe :p

thanks chris for gossip girl! :)

also, i think i'll be doing my final year project on glaucoma... can life get any more cliche than that?

2008-03-02T21:28:00.005+11:00

take time to realize that i'm on your side
didn't i, didn't i tell u
but i can't spell it out for u
no its never gonna be that simple
no i can't spell it out for u.

u know i think the world of u
that's how i always know u're going to be alright.
even without trying,
u're going to be alright.

2008-03-02T21:28:00.002+11:00

hmmmmmm.
ok feeling better about optom now. at least i managed to pass the clinical skills test. which wasn't much of a big deal. haha! i was just scared dunno why!

but our student clinic doesn't want us anymore :( so they had to set up an entirely new clinic in college square 2. applaude them for it! but no one knows about it! hopefully it'll pick up quickly cos its targetting the melbourne uni students. so no health care card /pensioner's card needed.

i have a feeeling we'll get many many many no shows/no book ins in our first week though... just a little scared we wont have enough practice before we graduate.

2008-02-26T19:08:00.000+11:00

today is one of those days i really hate optom
so demoralised now.

2008-02-20T15:24:00.004+11:00

change is a good thing sometimes. small little tweaks may seem insignificant but actually, is pretty remarkable and can go a long way. Naima (ANTM CYCLE FOUR! :D) said she got a mohawk to help her centre her thoughts. that would have soudned silly to me a few years back. but now i finally get a sense of what that's like.

change is undoubtedly something i fear (graduation, work, own house, own car, bills, family, kids). but it is... a good thing sometimes.

derrick:what's different?
chief:nothing
addison:leave him be
derrick:what happened to your hair?
chief:nothing
derrick:mm

*sloan and bourke walk in*

bourke: what happened to your hair?
addison: leave him be
sloan: you dyed it!!
derrick: but why?
addison whacks derrick with her newspaper and whispers exasperatedly: leave him be! what are you doing?
bourke: ok... but why?
the chief says slowly: men who have grey hair get noticed less than men who... don't
derrick: by who?
chief: well.
bourke:by the ladies?
(sloan laughs, addison stares at him. he suppresses his laugh with a cough. haha i love addison!)
derrick:looks good chief
bourke:very natural
sloan:the ladies'll love it.

*addison pulls all three men to the back of the elevator and gives them a lecture under her breath. i love addison!haha*

He is alone! all alone!
do any of you even know what that's like
to bourke: lives with christina, to derrick: digs the perfect 12 year old,to sloan: manwhore!
his wife left him. after 25 year of marriage.
so if the man wants to dye his hair for the ladies,
let him dye his hair for the ladies
leave him be.

later in the episode:

addison to the chief:
i dyed my hair blonde.
the day after derrick moved out
change is good.
your marriage is over
you're... starting over
so am i.

i just watched yet another fantastic episode of greys

2008-02-20T15:24:00.003+11:00

meredith's narration: "we all think we're going to be great. and we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren't met. but sometimes our expectations sell us short."

christina to bourke: "i was right. i swear i really believe what i did was right. i dont want you to forgive me. frankly, i'll find it patronising if u did because while i know i was right, u think im wrong which doesn't matter because... im in this. im in this for the long haul and i'm in this to finish the race. so if that means i dont win this one. then fine, i dont win. you win. i'm talking. see, i'm talking first. you win."

meredith's narration: sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected...

bourke to christina: "marry me."

*scene changes*

george to callie: "since my dad died, i feel like um, someone ripped out my stomach, filled the hole with asphalt...and i laugh everytime i remember i'm never going to talk to him again because that sounds like the stupidest thing i've ever heard, can't believe it's real...... but everytime i look at you, i feel better. shocks me...... i'd just be happy to look at you from across the room and even that, anything, any piece of you, i mean, hopefully all of you... that'd be the best thing... because, i love you......marry me?

meredith's narration: "you gotta wonder why we cling to our expectations because the expected is just what keeps us steady, standing, still. The expected is just the beginning... the unexpected... is what changes our lives."

Somebody's aching. Keeping it all in
Somebody won't let go of his heart but the truth is
It's painless
Letting your love show
You don't know
Somebody's hurting. Holding it all in
Somebody can't let go of his heart but the truth is
It's painless
Letting your love show

2008-02-18T17:59:00.002+11:00

yesterday at 7.30pm, i punctually plopped myself in front of the tv, all excited to watch so you think you can dance! the australian version that is. i was reallieee disppointed though! and daphne called from her rural area of Shep to say that all of them were disappointed too! sigh so saddd!!! i really wanted it to be good!

the opening routine was great though!!! the famous one that all sytycd junkies know too well... and i was positively beaming watching them do it... but after that it was all downhill. *sobs* :(

ok i realise my expectations may be way too high... and maybe i shldn't have pitted this against the american version. its their first show too... so there's still a lot of time for them to grow. but after watching lacey and kameron dance that BEAUTIFUL contemp routine on the first top 20 episode of the US version, u kinda realise anything's possible and u expect this batch of dancers to be able to do the same. maybe im a bit impatient. haha :p

i'm not sure if it was the dancing that i was disappointed with or whether it was the rest of the nitty gritty that got me sighing. Natalie Bassingthwaighte looks the part of Cat Deely (7 foot tall with a french accent hehehe) but doesn't have the same aura as her, nor the voice, nor the personality. Cat will hug any sweaty dancer in a heartbeat. though i dont blame Nat for cringing. haha. maybe im biased cos i love cat deely! to me, doing what she does with the rogue traders is the best move nat's made. didnt really like her in neighbours too. :p :p but she is super gorgeous and i can't think of a better candidate for a host.

didn't like (oh mann all this dislike in the air is unhealthyyyy hehe) the video clips too... maybe because we're used to seeing that well-lighted beautiful parquet studio and the familiar faces of mia michaels/dan karaty/shane sparks... and i loveeee and miss the goofy fist encounteres between the choreographers and the US dancers...sigh. all that's tolerable. but... one of my pet peeves is that, the choreographers didn't really talk about what the piece was about! so u couldnt really fully understand the piece or identify with the emotion... i wasn't moved as a result... so every performance was pretty flat for me.

O! and i REALLY didnt like the music the choreographers chose...meh.

having said that, i really feel the dancers did a good job and did dance their heart out...just want that bit more oooomph!!! haha :p

i hope that subsequent episodes will be more powerful and moving...

from a disappointed fan.

nice song!

2008-02-15T01:44:00.002+11:00

:) love this song! heard it on so u think u can dance quite a long while ago. think we're really entering/midway through the era where tv shows are making songs big. hmm...i love keyshia cole's voice :) so good so good.

I Tried To Call
But My Pride Wouldn't Let Me Dial
And I'm Sitting Here
With This Blank Expression
And The Way I Feel
I Wanna Curl Up Like A Child

I Know U Can Hear Me
I Know U Can Feel Me
I Can't Live Without You
God Please Make Me Better
I Wish I Wasnt The Way I Am

If I Told You Once,
I Told You Twice
You Can See It My Eyes
I'm All Cried Out
With Nothing To Say
Your Everything I Want It To Be
If You Could Only See
Your Heart Belongs To Me
I Love You So Much
I'm Hurting For Your Touch
Come And Set Me Free
Forever Yours I'll Be
Baby Won't You Come
And Take This Pain Away

2008-02-14T23:16:00.002+11:00

been going out with Lea the past two days.
stayed home today to save money hehe! ironically i decided to stay home on vday haha! studied a bit though! so it wasn't an entirely unproductive day :D time for peektures!

lea and me at kokoblack after watching the kiterunner..."for you, a thousand times over." <3

sights and sounds of lygon street from where we sat. alfresco's the way to go. :)

sipping our cups of mocha mmm

now you see it!

now you don't! :)

we went shopping :)

went around scouting for yoga classes

the next day we went around sniffing cologne for her bf's vday prezzie. haha. too bad i dont have a better pic :(

nice photo after the gig~

2008-02-10T20:10:00.000+11:00

was so bustling along swanston street and in chinatown today. :) the whole street was strewn with lettuce (from the lion dancing troops) and remnants from firecrakers. and was SOOO noisy! a good noisy hehe. firecrackers sound like really heavy rain.

danced at the corner of bourke and russel today. an sbs radio gig. :) think we did pretty well. energy was great!!! yay!!! other flarians came to support too. :) all in all, it was a perfect dayy~

last min prac at dawn's place hehe.

sbs radio~

miss president (sulynn <3) and meee

she looks nice here :)

dawn and meee

wish those were my real lashes LOL

the famous flare logo <3

pics

2008-02-09T21:19:00.000+11:00

been dancing a whole lot these past few days :) i actually feel more fit now after so many months of sitting on my butt *sheepish* :p tomorrow's the gig at chinatown! half of me's excited. quarter of me scared. quarter of me doesnt want it to end. and in my subconscious, i kinda do want it to end cos i wanna bum around again hehe
oops :x Decided to upload the photos that have been hiding in my phone for the past year. here they areeeee:

MY SHOES <3

2008-02-07T00:50:00.000+11:00

"the thing about addiction is...it neverends well. Because eventually, whatever it is that was getting us high...stops feeling good and starts to hurt. Still they say you don't kick the habit till you hit rock bottom. But how do you know when you're there?" -meredith grey.

*~thank u guys for always being around, and for making each other's rock bottoms feel a lot better~*

2008-02-07T00:14:00.000+11:00

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2008-02-06T23:01:00.001+11:00

went shopping today and really loved the dress i bought :)purple!
daph mentioned that must wear something new to the party tomorrow. haha. so i was like. ok die die must get something (worn all the rest of my new dresses! hehe) so i just picked up the thing closest to me hehe. didn't love it straight away but after looking at it, i liked it a bit more. now i love love love it!

haha okay. weird story. :s

anyways. went for dance straight after shopping. so tireddd. had quite a bad rehearsal :( realised that there are parts of this routine that i have been doing wrong for 2 years. have to readapt to it now. but throughout the whole rehearsal i kept doing it the way i used to do it...sigh. our new studio's great! really huge. but NO MIRRORS! and we can't find the aircon/fan switch! haha so it was super hot!!! watching so u think u can dance now. so many pple say dance has got them through this and that. they love it so much. one girl even became anoerexic for it! crazyyy!!! but yea. i do love it too. but i've decided not to join flare this year :( *sobs* really need to study... always have used dance as an outlet too. like today. rehearsals really helped me take my mind off everything. but yea. think its time i rely less on it. getting old too!!! hehe! bones are creaking and all. an my thighs hurt from just two days of rehearsals!!! haha...

went for reunion dinner straight away after that... all sweaty and everything. dinner was quite nice :) we were given fortune cookies by this really well made up cai shen! :) hehe and outside there were firecrackers going off and lion dancers and everything. felt very much like cny :)

TOP 100 WEEK!!! can't wait to watch it!!!

2008-02-05T12:45:00.000+11:00

dumdeedum
watching antm is making me miss singapore less. cos i watched it so much in singapore,it kinda feels like home. haha!
I love tyra banks!!! gorgeous, crazeeee, fakes a million and one accents, NICE, caring, real, strong. AHHHHH! i love her :)

but. my stupid internet has a 12gb limit. argh! so i can't watch much. was thinking of dragging my laptop down to the school library just to antm. but i think that'll look kinda loserish. haha! and at the same time,im addicted. so. HOW? nvm, oprah is here to save me in 10 minutes.

tried to study about toric contacts yesterday. die if u give it to me on paper to work out, i think i can do it. but i dont think i can do all those calculations in a clinical setting... think impatient patietns...hmm.

OMG! i totally forgot i have greys!!!!!!!! :D
and i have a video store just opposite the street. i can rent SATC/Friends/futurama/scrubs/can't remember what else they have haha! YAY!

5 more hours of boredom to kill before dance rehearsal... i think all that will save me. haha :)

2008-02-04T17:36:00.000+11:00

im back in melbourne!!! and immediately got hit by the dance culture here. :)
its like the tv stations sympathise with me coming back here.
aussie's so you think you can dance looks pretty good! there' still something about the american version that's better though... and the only contestant whom i thought was on par with the americans was this FIFTEEN year old boy! too young for the competition :( he'll be soooooo good in three years time! *excited*

another episode's on today! can't wait. :) this episode looks better :)

have to head straight back into the dance studio soon~ there's a gig coming up on the 10th of feb in chinatown! so exciting!!! :D

2008-02-02T15:22:00.000+11:00

yesterday night was the funnest night hehe :)
tiffany's surprise went well!!! yayyy, was really WONDERFULLL to see her happy and surrounded by lotsa gifts and friends :) we went to new york new york for dinner. and we were late!!! cos the gps led us round and round. hahaha.et had to distract her and keep her out of the restaurant. and he was there for like 1 1/2 hours too. felt bad for the poor fella!!! went uphill from there :) and it turned out to be a pretty memorable night for her. :) so happy to see her happy! hehe.

adjourned to ktv after that! tiff, cheryl and leon came along too! :) tiff didn't stay long though :( she helped me read the words to lian ai-ing. hehe. sang a few old spice girls hits with cheryl!!! she sang wannabe with me. haha!!! yay! normally daph's the other one doing the rap with me and all~ haha yesterday cheryl took her place. wee!

got high on chivas again! but not like last time thanfully. the end of the night was quite of a blur for me though. remember everything was spinning when i was saying bye to emily. hahaha. i think it was in the middle of a car park too. haha! DANGEROUS!

flying off today. really sad to leave for final year. FINAL YEAR. argh.

2008-01-30T15:39:00.000+11:00

hiding behind a facade is making things alright.