today was a much better day than yesterday :D
had a tough day at school. prac in the morning was bad...
couldn't see anything when doing the fundus lens stuff. and everybody in my group was just doing it like they've been doing it for years. this was probably the lowest i've felt in a long time... cos i felt so demoralised :( and stressed... tt combination is not good! tried not to let it get to me, after all we haven't had much practice with that technique yet... and later on i heard from my friends that some pple had trouble getting a view too...

then prac in the afternoon was bad too... was quite flustered... no organisation!
couldn't catch the steps at dance too :P :P but tt's okay hehe. dance was prob the best part of my day yesterday. jane's contemp piece is to HOME!!! michael buble's one... and i love that song!!!

it gets really weird when u're trying to say something nice but it comes out wrong... and u feel stupid after saying it cos u just feel judged... and when ur intention of saying it is misunderstood... and u dont know what else to say to clear it up. and the way u are inside isn't as emo as the way the words sound when they leave ur mouth *bishes myself* when u've made urself into some demanding person, when actually u're not asking for anything at all... and i was perfectly fine with everything and am still perfectly fine with everything... sometimes i dunno why i do the things i do. its so STUPID! *bishes myself again* and worse of all, you're left with some more things to say, some more things to clear up.

haha *breathes innnnn breathes outtt* okay. :p anyways, see im doing it again. sounding more emo than i actually am feeling. sucks! today was GOOOOOOOOD. my patient went well! :D i think the mark i got today will be enough to pull up my failure mark that's looming ahead in the near future. haha. cos they all say its a norm to fail a patient. supervisor was wayyyy to generous. she gave me full marks for so many sections. way way too nice... i think they're all way too nice... i feel like so far, they've been giving me more than i deserve. i feel bad. but happy too! :)

gig practice was great too!!! very fun... and we all actually worked out! all covered in sweat after that... *GRIN*

i love good days...no more bad days for meee

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