this is so rubbishy! hehe :p i'm not sure what's the 'this' i'm trying to refer to. could be the 13 pages of my neural science textbook i've yet to get through at this late hour. die saccades die! i wish we didn't have a brain stem. i wish we didn't have a brain!!! then i won't have to learn all this. for various reasons. 1) there'll be no brain to learn about 2) there'll be no brain to store the information about the brain. ha ha ha.

anyways, back to the "this". could refer to the fact that... ahhh. i dont know how to put this and still sound chirpy cos its really not something that would get one sad. anyways, could be the fact that i can't remember the last thing that made me genuinely happy (if u minus off the regular things that make me feel genuinely happy and minus off the moment when cheryl messaged me to come online a few days back). ok! rephrase. i can't remember the last SPECIAL, once in a blue moon thing that made me genuinely happy.

need something new in my life mannn. but i dunno what... :s

also, i feel so bad for being lazy to laugh at my friend's jokes no matter how funny. :p ok la but that could be due to the fact tht i'm still sick and the laughter is all choked up in my voice box and the hahahas can't get out. i feel so bad!!! and too tired to be bubbly and friendly. i feel so terrible!!! and quite "out of it" at times. i don't even feel like making conversation sometimes. :p :p

haiya... bottom line is that... i need my energy back! want my germs to go awayyy. really need to stop being that glassy eyed girl who finds face to face interaction a chore. :p only saving grace is that i'm still ok with online interaction. wah lao how crappy is that.

// posted by diana at 12:36 AM :: 1 comments