Thursday, May 03, 2018
It's been years since I've written. Lots have changed, in some ways for the better, in others not. I've gained so much but I also feel like I've lost more.
I've lost all my close friendships and I do admit that I deserve this. I wish I could turn back the clock and start over but it doesn't work that way. So all that's left to do now is to carry on my way, put the lessons I've learnt the hard way into practise and I can only hope to make new friendships as good as the ones I've lost (I highly doubt this will happen).
I have to continue trusting in Jesus' will for me and find comfort and healing in Him (cuddling the kittens help too hehe).
I feel like I've lost support and good listening ears so I thought coming back here to this space to pen my thoughts down will help. Thank you for reading, if you're passing by :)
// posted by diana at 7:49 PM :: 0 comments
Saturday, November 27, 2010
i am back from india! land of blaring horns, crazy traffic that just seems to fall into place, women who can miraculously do everything in their sarees: a land of many possibilities (which some people don't get because of their lack of resources), a land of culture and colour... and strange smells.
I don't think I am ready to immerse myself into the city life in India. I still can't yet see myself walking the streets of India with ease. Thus, it was a big relief to take that train ride out of the city into the much needed pleasantness of the country side.
I should sleep! More to come soon!
I don't think I am ready to immerse myself into the city life in India. I still can't yet see myself walking the streets of India with ease. Thus, it was a big relief to take that train ride out of the city into the much needed pleasantness of the country side.
I should sleep! More to come soon!
// posted by diana at 1:27 AM :: 1 comments
Thursday, September 16, 2010
blogging's been taken over by twitter and facebook!
i think this cyber trend is slowly disappearing. :( i can't revive a trend but i can revive my own blog :)
anyhoo, life has been routine (a life which involves fulltime work normally is) but still filled with pockets of excitement like my ever changing work schedule that sends me travelling from north east victoria (albury/wodonga/lavington) to south west victoria (as far as geelong). i am tired!!! with a capital T. But I will and must hang in there till next year when i'm finally back in melbourne for good, working in g-town and still getting regional loading hehehe. :) mmmmmm cash. :p just kiddin'.
so what else's been new... excitement has also come in the form of material things (i realise how horrible that sounds, but i plan on milking the benefits of fulltime work hehe). daph and i went late night shopping today and randomly bought a diamond ring each. i think "diamond ring" kinda makes it sound more precious than it really is though. The phrase, "a ring with diamonds", probably describes it a little more appropriately. the rocks aren't in your face. its just 12 really TINY ones on a slim band of white gold.
home in point cook is getting more functional as the days go by. i really hope that i'll be able to fit everything in to my small room and make it look the way i want it to! i have made the risky decision of sacrificing room space for natural light. the larger room has such a small window, i think i'd be depressed if i took that room. hehe
all in all, life is shaping up nicely for our move back to melbourne. i miss dancing like MAD like you wont believe. but it also scares me to go back to it. sucking at it scares me :(
gdnite world for now. and i hope i'll write soon.
i think this cyber trend is slowly disappearing. :( i can't revive a trend but i can revive my own blog :)
anyhoo, life has been routine (a life which involves fulltime work normally is) but still filled with pockets of excitement like my ever changing work schedule that sends me travelling from north east victoria (albury/wodonga/lavington) to south west victoria (as far as geelong). i am tired!!! with a capital T. But I will and must hang in there till next year when i'm finally back in melbourne for good, working in g-town and still getting regional loading hehehe. :) mmmmmm cash. :p just kiddin'.
so what else's been new... excitement has also come in the form of material things (i realise how horrible that sounds, but i plan on milking the benefits of fulltime work hehe). daph and i went late night shopping today and randomly bought a diamond ring each. i think "diamond ring" kinda makes it sound more precious than it really is though. The phrase, "a ring with diamonds", probably describes it a little more appropriately. the rocks aren't in your face. its just 12 really TINY ones on a slim band of white gold.
home in point cook is getting more functional as the days go by. i really hope that i'll be able to fit everything in to my small room and make it look the way i want it to! i have made the risky decision of sacrificing room space for natural light. the larger room has such a small window, i think i'd be depressed if i took that room. hehe
all in all, life is shaping up nicely for our move back to melbourne. i miss dancing like MAD like you wont believe. but it also scares me to go back to it. sucking at it scares me :(
gdnite world for now. and i hope i'll write soon.
// posted by diana at 11:09 PM :: 0 comments
Friday, July 23, 2010
u know that u really love someone...when you hear bad news while you're on the way to meet them... and it doesn't get u down at all.
and all that goes on in your mind is that everything will be okay when you see them.
(and i mean BAD news)
and all that goes on in your mind is that everything will be okay when you see them.
(and i mean BAD news)
// posted by diana at 9:48 PM :: 1 comments
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Thursday, April 08, 2010
u know i'm always behind you.
rooting for u.
'i'll catch u falling when u least expect'
rooting for u.
'i'll catch u falling when u least expect'
// posted by diana at 8:06 AM :: 0 comments
i miss easter camp already
the wonderful people and all the valuable lessons learnt.
putting death to your old self. and glorifying God. always so hard to do! but when bringing Glory to the Lord is the only thing on your mind, sin becomes boring...
i have yet to reach that stage. We're all works in progress and I pray that all of us will grow in the Lord day by day.
the wonderful people and all the valuable lessons learnt.
putting death to your old self. and glorifying God. always so hard to do! but when bringing Glory to the Lord is the only thing on your mind, sin becomes boring...
i have yet to reach that stage. We're all works in progress and I pray that all of us will grow in the Lord day by day.
// posted by diana at 8:04 AM :: 0 comments
Saturday, March 06, 2010
today i thought to myself.
i really didn't waste all that time on you (:
i really didn't waste all that time on you (:
// posted by diana at 9:31 PM :: 0 comments
Monday, September 28, 2009
ok trying to blog after such a long while!
I have no idea what to write though.
first thing's first. Ris Low. I think people should just stop talking about her.
yes she can't speak english (but she can probably kick all our asses in chinese)
and she's not that good looking
but its not her fault she won miss singapore world. i dont think she would be as talked about if she didn't win it.
so its not her fault.
greys anatomy! season 6... i have a feeling the writers are trying to make it more light hearted and funny (or seems that way). im addicted to greys though so i cant say anything bad about it...
first episode was on the five stages of grief. and everyone experiences the stages differently.
day 3 for me. things aren't looking up as yet. but they will. boys have cooties!!!!!!!!
I have no idea what to write though.
first thing's first. Ris Low. I think people should just stop talking about her.
yes she can't speak english (but she can probably kick all our asses in chinese)
and she's not that good looking
but its not her fault she won miss singapore world. i dont think she would be as talked about if she didn't win it.
so its not her fault.
greys anatomy! season 6... i have a feeling the writers are trying to make it more light hearted and funny (or seems that way). im addicted to greys though so i cant say anything bad about it...
first episode was on the five stages of grief. and everyone experiences the stages differently.
day 3 for me. things aren't looking up as yet. but they will. boys have cooties!!!!!!!!
// posted by diana at 7:24 PM :: 0 comments
Monday, June 01, 2009
sighhhh feeling so out of sorts today
firstly went to work today feeling really nervous. no idea why.
and now im feeling really super depressed. i have no idea why too.
so the only logical explanation is PMS! haha.
store is moving soon. so we get 2 days of no testing. i wish i could go to sydney!! visit cheryl. but i think we have to help out. which i dont wanna! haha:p will be good to get re orientated with the new store though.
i dont want to do anything!!!
firstly went to work today feeling really nervous. no idea why.
and now im feeling really super depressed. i have no idea why too.
so the only logical explanation is PMS! haha.
store is moving soon. so we get 2 days of no testing. i wish i could go to sydney!! visit cheryl. but i think we have to help out. which i dont wanna! haha:p will be good to get re orientated with the new store though.
i dont want to do anything!!!
// posted by diana at 6:37 PM :: 0 comments
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
it was a really disappointing week for me at work this week. 2 remakes at the start of the week and 2 remakes at the end.
but i think there's an awesome weekend awaiting me. always great having something to look forward to. kinda brings back memories.
but i think there's an awesome weekend awaiting me. always great having something to look forward to. kinda brings back memories.
// posted by diana at 8:30 PM :: 0 comments
Sunday, March 29, 2009
yay!!
i'm finally in wodonga/albury for the weekend. been going back to melb the past four weeks to do church things. a bit tiring really. hoping i wont suffer from a bad burn out. but i always feel extremely bad when i dont go back. letting the other leaders down and all.
cooking church lunch this coming sunday... i feel like i really have to rest up for that. whole morning of cooking. followed by a four hour bus ride back to albury at night... and work the next morning...
not going to be fun...but its all in the name of feeding the congregation and bonding with the cell members. :) and wanton mee!!! haha.
just came back from driving lesson. i always feel so nervous when i drive! too many things to look out for. i feel like i wont ever get my license... will be like those last chance learners. :p :p :p
and because im in albury this weekend, i can finally watch sytycd on tv!!! :)
i'm finally in wodonga/albury for the weekend. been going back to melb the past four weeks to do church things. a bit tiring really. hoping i wont suffer from a bad burn out. but i always feel extremely bad when i dont go back. letting the other leaders down and all.
cooking church lunch this coming sunday... i feel like i really have to rest up for that. whole morning of cooking. followed by a four hour bus ride back to albury at night... and work the next morning...
not going to be fun...but its all in the name of feeding the congregation and bonding with the cell members. :) and wanton mee!!! haha.
just came back from driving lesson. i always feel so nervous when i drive! too many things to look out for. i feel like i wont ever get my license... will be like those last chance learners. :p :p :p
and because im in albury this weekend, i can finally watch sytycd on tv!!! :)
// posted by diana at 3:13 PM :: 0 comments
:)
:)
:)
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Since you've gone I've lost a chip on my shoulder,
Since you've gone I feel like I've gotten older,
And now you've gone it feels as if the whole wide world is my stage
And now you've gone it's like I've been let out of my cage
Since you've gone I feel like I've gotten older,
And now you've gone it feels as if the whole wide world is my stage
And now you've gone it's like I've been let out of my cage
// posted by diana at 10:05 PM :: 0 comments
Monday, March 02, 2009
this is one of those days, i really wanna swap careers
i told my boss' wife what i really wanna do. lol and she's like "yeah! one of the guys we had here before wanted to be a journalist."
i told my boss' wife what i really wanna do. lol and she's like "yeah! one of the guys we had here before wanted to be a journalist."
// posted by diana at 6:31 PM :: 0 comments
Thursday, February 26, 2009
notes to self:
this one puts knots in my heart:
i know my music's way behind!!!
this one puts knots in my heart:
i know my music's way behind!!!
// posted by diana at 9:42 PM :: 0 comments
Monday, February 23, 2009
finally blogging! :)
nothing much has been going on besides work. first week of work was pretty good! (: second and third week, not so... cos didn't meet many nice patients :( i figured its normally the old ladies with cataracts that are mean to me. cos changing their powers dont help them. so they immediately think i dont know what im doing (they may be right though).
determined to make this fourth week a better one (: still getting patients looking at me with doubtful looks. daph is getting the same looks. dad says its cos we look too young.
haven't been to studios yet. daph bought new foot thongs!!! so that means she'll def come with me. :D
itching to go back to melb now.
beautiful music. beautiful clothes.
you walk the surface of this town
the high heels above the ground
and high horses that we know
keep us safe until the night
nothing much has been going on besides work. first week of work was pretty good! (: second and third week, not so... cos didn't meet many nice patients :( i figured its normally the old ladies with cataracts that are mean to me. cos changing their powers dont help them. so they immediately think i dont know what im doing (they may be right though).
determined to make this fourth week a better one (: still getting patients looking at me with doubtful looks. daph is getting the same looks. dad says its cos we look too young.
haven't been to studios yet. daph bought new foot thongs!!! so that means she'll def come with me. :D
itching to go back to melb now.
beautiful music. beautiful clothes.
you walk the surface of this town
the high heels above the ground
and high horses that we know
keep us safe until the night
// posted by diana at 9:22 PM :: 0 comments
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Saturday, February 07, 2009
its the first weekend after a long hard week of work.(ok not long and not hard, but very well paced and fun even!) i get to stay up late tonight!!!
im amazed that we've adapted so well to the sudden transition from singapore's city to the countryside down under. Its actually not too bad a town. There's Sportsgirl which i like :) and Supre too. and a cinema and chinese (with actual chinese people from hong kong who speak canto as a first language), thai, indian and mexican restaurants (with HUGE margaritas)!!! and Safeway closes at 12 midnight so its not too bad. and there's a TAB which opens till 4am everyday. and there's a dancewear shop just around the corner from where i work!!!
ok basically, its not so bad a town. :) there are cows in my backyard though :)
got so many photos from singapore to put up, but too lazy right now... yawn
im amazed that we've adapted so well to the sudden transition from singapore's city to the countryside down under. Its actually not too bad a town. There's Sportsgirl which i like :) and Supre too. and a cinema and chinese (with actual chinese people from hong kong who speak canto as a first language), thai, indian and mexican restaurants (with HUGE margaritas)!!! and Safeway closes at 12 midnight so its not too bad. and there's a TAB which opens till 4am everyday. and there's a dancewear shop just around the corner from where i work!!!
ok basically, its not so bad a town. :) there are cows in my backyard though :)
got so many photos from singapore to put up, but too lazy right now... yawn
// posted by diana at 1:33 AM :: 1 comments
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
countdowns to a dreaded day have begun on msn nicks and facebook status updates are far from happy and festive.
its almost time for us to leave singapore again and i've got the blues :(
its almost time for us to leave singapore again and i've got the blues :(
// posted by diana at 5:53 AM :: 0 comments
Sunday, January 18, 2009
went for a girl hip hop class at danzpeople yesterday! routine was to circus!!! unfortunately, the teacher was already on the last three eights. and they've been working on this routine for the past 2 weeks already.
but it was so good! sweated it out. i was so happy that it was to a britney song. spent all my time today watching britney vids and interviews. what a great way to spend a day. body's aching all over from a combination of clubbing on wed and the class yesterday.
this is a boring entry.
but it was so good! sweated it out. i was so happy that it was to a britney song. spent all my time today watching britney vids and interviews. what a great way to spend a day. body's aching all over from a combination of clubbing on wed and the class yesterday.
this is a boring entry.
// posted by diana at 4:13 AM :: 0 comments
this is one doodle that can't be undid
this is one doodle that can't be undid
this is one doodle that can't be undid
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
just watched juno for a second time.
dont know what else to say, just that, there are so many things to love about it :)
dont know what else to say, just that, there are so many things to love about it :)
// posted by diana at 9:54 PM :: 0 comments
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
yay!! signed up for dance classes. sort of. (have we?) haha
but really excited anyways!!! its been a long time (:
wondering if my brain can still keep up with steps. time to put nds' brain training to the test! *grin*
just found pictures of a random ballet enthusiast and her husband. she made her husband model ballet-esque pictures with her and they look so cutee. aww. she was in total ballet attire, tutu and pointes and all. and he was in his jeans and converse shoes! awwwww.
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down to the last couple of weeks in sgp. been a pretty fruitful and fun holiday i think! catching up with dydct (outings and more outings!!) and tablegang (from hawker food parties all the way to atas food parties!) went to the zoo with yj, yj's dad and daph on saturday. its so changed now! lush greenery, fresh air, funky animals, a cool cool sea lion, cute 2 month old baby manatees and playful elephants!!! that pretty much sums up the day (:
oh! and i want an orang utannnn. so cute!
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brilliant song!!!
Hands down
I'm too proud, for love
But with eyes shut
It's you I'm thinking of
But how we move from A to B it can't be up to me
Cause I don't know
Eye to eye
Thigh to Thigh
I let go
I think I'm a little bit
Little bit
A little bit in love with you
But only if you're a little bit
Little bit
Little bit
In lalalala love with me
Oh ah
:) :) :) i love all the lalalas that substitute proper words.
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this photo cracks me up.
but really excited anyways!!! its been a long time (:
wondering if my brain can still keep up with steps. time to put nds' brain training to the test! *grin*
just found pictures of a random ballet enthusiast and her husband. she made her husband model ballet-esque pictures with her and they look so cutee. aww. she was in total ballet attire, tutu and pointes and all. and he was in his jeans and converse shoes! awwwww.
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down to the last couple of weeks in sgp. been a pretty fruitful and fun holiday i think! catching up with dydct (outings and more outings!!) and tablegang (from hawker food parties all the way to atas food parties!) went to the zoo with yj, yj's dad and daph on saturday. its so changed now! lush greenery, fresh air, funky animals, a cool cool sea lion, cute 2 month old baby manatees and playful elephants!!! that pretty much sums up the day (:
oh! and i want an orang utannnn. so cute!
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brilliant song!!!
Hands down
I'm too proud, for love
But with eyes shut
It's you I'm thinking of
But how we move from A to B it can't be up to me
Cause I don't know
Eye to eye
Thigh to Thigh
I let go
I think I'm a little bit
Little bit
A little bit in love with you
But only if you're a little bit
Little bit
Little bit
In lalalala love with me
Oh ah
:) :) :) i love all the lalalas that substitute proper words.
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this photo cracks me up.
// posted by diana at 4:00 AM :: 1 comments
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Thursday, January 08, 2009
sigh, cheryl, tiff: really sorry our plans to go to butter got wrecked.
and had to turn around to go to zouk instead :(
i had a lot of fun, but thought about u girls the whole time i was there.
and had to turn around to go to zouk instead :(
i had a lot of fun, but thought about u girls the whole time i was there.
// posted by diana at 5:49 AM :: 0 comments
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
we've all fallen ill!!!
and not only dydct.
but also table gang!!!
nevertheless, we're still throwing caution to the wind. gonna club tonight!
its a wednesday after all!!!
and not only dydct.
but also table gang!!!
nevertheless, we're still throwing caution to the wind. gonna club tonight!
its a wednesday after all!!!
// posted by diana at 5:57 PM :: 0 comments
Friday, January 02, 2009
Monday, December 29, 2008
i <3 britney, bobby n blake! haha.
this is such a good song~
and the lyrics... so girl power!!! yea!!!
c, daph and i made a start at toy soldier!!! and i think we learnt quite a bit of the dance in one night. :) yay for us!!!
this is such a good song~
and the lyrics... so girl power!!! yea!!!
c, daph and i made a start at toy soldier!!! and i think we learnt quite a bit of the dance in one night. :) yay for us!!!
// posted by diana at 2:39 PM :: 0 comments
Saturday, December 27, 2008
dexter's bday at zouk last night was really awesome!!! music was fantastic!!!
they played forever!!! and disturbia and low!!!and just dance. and u get the picture :D nowww we know when to go to phuture. *wink* i got kinda tired and stony and less energetic after awhile though, but that always happens to me in the club hehhh :p
i think i've stocked up enough of clubbing to last me the whole hols and the entire year in the country. getting old!!!
but still have yet to go with dydct......:( :( :(
anyways, this is the hot routine which i've been raving about!
really felt like going for a dance class today. dunno why! for some release mebbe? & was also in this productive mood to do something useful, learn something new or something. or do something feel-good. im feeling like the way christina felt in that episode of greys, when she got her eyebrows shaved for her wedding lol and she went back to seattle grace saying she needed to cut something open then and there.
got out from bed at 7am to look for studios to go to, but sadly, everything's closed for xmas :( so now im just trying to learn steps off youtube haha.
they played forever!!! and disturbia and low!!!and just dance. and u get the picture :D nowww we know when to go to phuture. *wink* i got kinda tired and stony and less energetic after awhile though, but that always happens to me in the club hehhh :p
i think i've stocked up enough of clubbing to last me the whole hols and the entire year in the country. getting old!!!
but still have yet to go with dydct......:( :( :(
anyways, this is the hot routine which i've been raving about!
really felt like going for a dance class today. dunno why! for some release mebbe? & was also in this productive mood to do something useful, learn something new or something. or do something feel-good. im feeling like the way christina felt in that episode of greys, when she got her eyebrows shaved for her wedding lol and she went back to seattle grace saying she needed to cut something open then and there.
got out from bed at 7am to look for studios to go to, but sadly, everything's closed for xmas :( so now im just trying to learn steps off youtube haha.
// posted by diana at 2:50 PM :: 0 comments
christmas
christmas
christmas
Friday, December 26, 2008
its Christmas!!! :D
Christmas was pretty good this year. dinner with the extended family was extremely bittersweet. seeing my uncle in the condition he is in now is extremely heartbreaking. but i believe prayers of healing will continue to be spoken and God's will will be done at the end of it all. cousin's kids are getting cuter and smarter and naughtier each year. haha.
There was plenty of food at the dinner!!! including gorgeous MANUKA honey ham contributed by dad :) cost a bomb but it was so worth it!!! cousin whom my grandma calls a "clever cook" made lamb and it was soooooo delicious!!! there was also turkey, pasta, lots and lots of salad etc etc etc.
desert consisted of my uncle's birthday cake baked and decorated by my grandma. it was kueh lapis with chocolate icing!!! haha. my grandma's "specialty" cos u never find kueh lapis like that anywhere. must've been a lot of work...
i was too full to eat the durian puffs and the china biscuits :(
zouk-ing tomorrow with the cell peeps! hahaha. think everyone's pretty excited about it. i'm excited to club with them!
im being v incoherent and abrupt. in a hurry to go watch nodame!!! characters are slowly becoming more endearing so that's good (:
Christmas was pretty good this year. dinner with the extended family was extremely bittersweet. seeing my uncle in the condition he is in now is extremely heartbreaking. but i believe prayers of healing will continue to be spoken and God's will will be done at the end of it all. cousin's kids are getting cuter and smarter and naughtier each year. haha.
There was plenty of food at the dinner!!! including gorgeous MANUKA honey ham contributed by dad :) cost a bomb but it was so worth it!!! cousin whom my grandma calls a "clever cook" made lamb and it was soooooo delicious!!! there was also turkey, pasta, lots and lots of salad etc etc etc.
desert consisted of my uncle's birthday cake baked and decorated by my grandma. it was kueh lapis with chocolate icing!!! haha. my grandma's "specialty" cos u never find kueh lapis like that anywhere. must've been a lot of work...
i was too full to eat the durian puffs and the china biscuits :(
zouk-ing tomorrow with the cell peeps! hahaha. think everyone's pretty excited about it. i'm excited to club with them!
im being v incoherent and abrupt. in a hurry to go watch nodame!!! characters are slowly becoming more endearing so that's good (:
// posted by diana at 5:52 AM :: 0 comments